“PTSD” is a dream collaboration between dying in designer and celebrated producer Nick Mira (Juice WRLD, Kodak Black).
On “PTSD,” Bobby shares, “Working with Nick Mira was sick as fuck. Nick produced one of the biggest songs of 2018 in “Lucid Dreams”, so working with him early on feels damn good. Nick sent over a beat pack with 11 curated beats specifically for my sound so jumping into these was a breeze. At the time, I was going through some bad PTSD from my past relationship, so the song “PTSD” pretty much wrote itself. I just talked about how I was feeling and what was going on in my life; I was feeling super depressed and alone.”
For Chicago-based singer/rapper dying in designer, 2018 was the hardest year of his life. Consumed by a relationship that led to heartbreak, depression and suicidal thoughts, O’Brien, used his pain to create music that pulled him back into the world. The result is a lyrically gut-wrenching, honest, raw portrait of emotion backed by catchy melodies, cathartic 808s and breakdowns.
About dying in designer:
dying in designer’s early influences came from bands like Blink 182 and Silverstein. He played in emo and hardcore bands throughout high school, while becoming engulfed in rap and the Chicago drill scene. dying in designer cemented his unique style writing bars and throwing cyphers in the school cafeteria. He blends pop punk, emo, rap, and trap to create a melodic sound all his own.
This blend of styles shines in “Devil’s Callin’,” a melodic, uplifting single that hits hard with false bravado. Feeling broken and anxious, dying in designer uses feelings of pain, anger, and sadness to fuel something therapeutic and cathartic. dying in designer explains: “The song is about saying you feel better about moving on from a past relationship, when in reality, you really don’t want to move on at all.”
“Gerard Way,” deals with missing someone after they’re out of your life. It’s about wrestling with the good and bad moments, ultimately admitting that “you’re not okay.”
On “Lately,” dying in designer laments, “This was my worst fucking year. I could drown in my own tears.” Stripping pretension and leaving vulnerability, O’Brien admits to dealing with suicidal thoughts. “Lately was written like a suicide note. I was in a very toxic relationship, which put me in an extremely dark place,” dying in designer shares. “I want to help people who feel the way I have felt.“
He adds: “I want to be a role model to these broken kids around the world. I want these kids to know that it’s okay to feel down sometimes – emotions are real and will always be universal. I want my music to save lives.”